I don't actually stress out in the normal sense (whatever that is). I don't really think about what's due until about an hour (or two) before it's due. No need to get stressed. It'll get done and it'll be great. What I do stress about is what I want to do.
From the time I was in Kindergarten, everyone wants to know what we want to do next. What do you want to be when you grow up? Do you want to go to college? Where? What's your major? Oh, what will you do with that? Not that those questions are bad. I'm not a big fan of when people tell me questions are invalid and stupid and annoying, so know that that is not what I'm saying here. I'm just saying it has me constantly thinking about the answers.
But I don't have them.
Will I stay in a field like my major? An actor? Will I go to grad school? When? Where? Will I stay in an acting program there? Will I pursue music a little more? Will I go after that history degree? What about seminary? Will I do standup? Comedy? SNL? But what about the city...? Will I do something with kids? Will I teach? What's going to happen with me?
Until recently, I thought that, for some reason, those questions needed to be answered pronto. But, actually, they don't.
I was going through our make-shift Barnes and Noble here on campus in the religion section and there was a book that said on the cover (something like) God will lead you. As in, no matter your dreams and wants and needs, God knows.
Personally, until pretty recently, this whole "God will bring you through it" thing sounded super cheesy and weird. Like, yeah, I believe, but let's make it even more cheesy. Jeez. But then I started to understand what it meant.
All of the adults I know, like actual adults that have been doing it for a while, have this huge, interesting journey. My dad is in love with cars and knows everything there is to know about them. My mom has been doing art since she was a kid and babysat just as a teenager, and now has made a career out of both. My professors here talk all the time about the moment they knew something switched for them. As in something brought them to where they are now. And is bringing them through other things they do.
Pretty significant.
As in we're not done developing. By the end, I get that God is actually moving us through the path. Whatever happens, even the unexpected, He lights the path for us. He guides us through it. And we, ultimately, are where we are meant to be. Until we want to go further. And it's exciting. And awesome.
What I'm learning that, first of all, I have time. And second of all, as long as I keep the vigor I need for life and keep an open mind, God will bring me through it. He will light the path I need to take. I believe. I have faith. I'll find my path. And I'll keep developing. Thanks to God.
From the time I was in Kindergarten, everyone wants to know what we want to do next. What do you want to be when you grow up? Do you want to go to college? Where? What's your major? Oh, what will you do with that? Not that those questions are bad. I'm not a big fan of when people tell me questions are invalid and stupid and annoying, so know that that is not what I'm saying here. I'm just saying it has me constantly thinking about the answers.
But I don't have them.
Will I stay in a field like my major? An actor? Will I go to grad school? When? Where? Will I stay in an acting program there? Will I pursue music a little more? Will I go after that history degree? What about seminary? Will I do standup? Comedy? SNL? But what about the city...? Will I do something with kids? Will I teach? What's going to happen with me?
Until recently, I thought that, for some reason, those questions needed to be answered pronto. But, actually, they don't.
I was going through our make-shift Barnes and Noble here on campus in the religion section and there was a book that said on the cover (something like) God will lead you. As in, no matter your dreams and wants and needs, God knows.
Personally, until pretty recently, this whole "God will bring you through it" thing sounded super cheesy and weird. Like, yeah, I believe, but let's make it even more cheesy. Jeez. But then I started to understand what it meant.
All of the adults I know, like actual adults that have been doing it for a while, have this huge, interesting journey. My dad is in love with cars and knows everything there is to know about them. My mom has been doing art since she was a kid and babysat just as a teenager, and now has made a career out of both. My professors here talk all the time about the moment they knew something switched for them. As in something brought them to where they are now. And is bringing them through other things they do.
Pretty significant.
As in we're not done developing. By the end, I get that God is actually moving us through the path. Whatever happens, even the unexpected, He lights the path for us. He guides us through it. And we, ultimately, are where we are meant to be. Until we want to go further. And it's exciting. And awesome.
What I'm learning that, first of all, I have time. And second of all, as long as I keep the vigor I need for life and keep an open mind, God will bring me through it. He will light the path I need to take. I believe. I have faith. I'll find my path. And I'll keep developing. Thanks to God.
I know I've posted this picture before, but Lupita Nyang'o is an amazing human who really puts the inspiration back in acting for me.
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