Staying the same isn't as easy as it looks. It's filled, actually,
with tons of times when I almost changed. When someone said that thing
that provoked a "hmm..." from me. When I tried to put what that person
said into perspective. When I preach to other people about doing the
right thing, like what that person told me. When I realized how much,
maybe, I hadn't changed. Starting and restarting. So much goes into
staying the same. It makes me wonder, if there is so much going into
staying the same, how much more work would it be to actually change?
Of course, we all know that, really, we all change all of the time. Constantly we're changing. Biologically, we're changing. Emotionally, we're changing. Even physically, we're changing. Now, you could be like me right now and be wondering how you're changing physically if you don't even remember the last time you worked out and don't even ask if I've gotten all of my fruits and veggies in for the day. But we are changing physically.
But what about making a big change? Like really going for it? Like actually starting a different lifestyle of healthy eating and active nature. Like going for it for the long haul? Sure, setting goals, but then reaching those goals and setting new goals.
For 21 years, I've been overweight. My whole life. I remember buying my first pair of jeans in the third grade (because my mom always bought me elastic waist because that's what she wears. Anywho) and having to shop in the juniors because the regular girl sizes didn't fit. I remember doing PE in elementary school and being buddies with a fellow constantly-trying-to-lose-weight classmate who, in the 5th grade, when I told her I weighed 180lbs, she was awe-struck. I remember always feeling like I was born fat, skinny people are born skinny, and that's how the world works. I remember coming up with excuses for myself. Well, this is how I'm known. I can't lose weight, because my weird aesthetic and the thing that makes me me will be gone. I remember starting and restarting and restarting weight loss programs. I remember being active and then stopping. I remember my aunt's eyes growing fuller each time she'd seen me because "my God, when will she ever lose weight?" I remember my mom crying because "I'm sorry you have to work so hard at being healthy." I remember me, time and time again, going to my mom and dad saying "I'm going to really do it this time" and falling off the wagon quicker than it took me to jump on.
It genuinely seems like I've tried everything. But, here is something I haven't even thought about trying. Bringing God to the mix. God seems to motivate me in every other aspect in my life. Why not bring Him in my healthy lifestyle journey? I mean, I don't want the things TV is telling me I want. I'm not looking for a quick fix. I'm not looking to be super skinny. I'm not looking to starve, believe me! I'm looking for a healthy lifestyle that is sustainable and will help the quality of my life. I'm 21 years old! What better time to start this than right now? So, here it goes.
This blog will continue to have my questions and opinions and (everything) stuff about God and life and love and (everything) stuff. But now, we're going to see how well I can tie it into my healthy lifestyle journey! It'll include videos with my bro, cool articles I've found connecting this whole health thing with religion, and other cool things that I'm not even sure about yet. I have no clue what this will look like. I don't even know if it'll work. But I think it's worth a shot. Because taking care of myself is not selfish. It's one of our huge priorities. To love ourselves and take care of ourselves to that we might do the same for others! So, Here I go. You're welcome to join!
Woo!
Mary Taylor
Rosie always gets me motivated! Woo!
Of course, we all know that, really, we all change all of the time. Constantly we're changing. Biologically, we're changing. Emotionally, we're changing. Even physically, we're changing. Now, you could be like me right now and be wondering how you're changing physically if you don't even remember the last time you worked out and don't even ask if I've gotten all of my fruits and veggies in for the day. But we are changing physically.
But what about making a big change? Like really going for it? Like actually starting a different lifestyle of healthy eating and active nature. Like going for it for the long haul? Sure, setting goals, but then reaching those goals and setting new goals.
For 21 years, I've been overweight. My whole life. I remember buying my first pair of jeans in the third grade (because my mom always bought me elastic waist because that's what she wears. Anywho) and having to shop in the juniors because the regular girl sizes didn't fit. I remember doing PE in elementary school and being buddies with a fellow constantly-trying-to-lose-weight classmate who, in the 5th grade, when I told her I weighed 180lbs, she was awe-struck. I remember always feeling like I was born fat, skinny people are born skinny, and that's how the world works. I remember coming up with excuses for myself. Well, this is how I'm known. I can't lose weight, because my weird aesthetic and the thing that makes me me will be gone. I remember starting and restarting and restarting weight loss programs. I remember being active and then stopping. I remember my aunt's eyes growing fuller each time she'd seen me because "my God, when will she ever lose weight?" I remember my mom crying because "I'm sorry you have to work so hard at being healthy." I remember me, time and time again, going to my mom and dad saying "I'm going to really do it this time" and falling off the wagon quicker than it took me to jump on.
It genuinely seems like I've tried everything. But, here is something I haven't even thought about trying. Bringing God to the mix. God seems to motivate me in every other aspect in my life. Why not bring Him in my healthy lifestyle journey? I mean, I don't want the things TV is telling me I want. I'm not looking for a quick fix. I'm not looking to be super skinny. I'm not looking to starve, believe me! I'm looking for a healthy lifestyle that is sustainable and will help the quality of my life. I'm 21 years old! What better time to start this than right now? So, here it goes.
This blog will continue to have my questions and opinions and (everything) stuff about God and life and love and (everything) stuff. But now, we're going to see how well I can tie it into my healthy lifestyle journey! It'll include videos with my bro, cool articles I've found connecting this whole health thing with religion, and other cool things that I'm not even sure about yet. I have no clue what this will look like. I don't even know if it'll work. But I think it's worth a shot. Because taking care of myself is not selfish. It's one of our huge priorities. To love ourselves and take care of ourselves to that we might do the same for others! So, Here I go. You're welcome to join!
Woo!
Mary Taylor
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